I had a weird, paranoid thought of change and I imagined someone very vaige or no one blowing a bubble and I thought something. How can a bubble be blown and then just pop without anything touching it? Then I had another thought. How does anything change like that? just exploding. Then I thought what if the sun did that. What if it just exploded. Yeah, another opocalyptic thought. Well I didn't actually think of it exploding but I thought what if it just got brighter or just dimmed. I don't know how I can do that. Surviving that. Seems fun. Spending the rest of my life alone. If the sun just suddenly got brighter I wouldn't have any other choice but to live under ground. I probably wouldn't be able to find somewhere to live but if I did it would be deep so around the hole I would put up mirrors to beam light on my garden that would probably burn unless I find a way to keep that from happening like if I filter it with rocks or moving the mirrors. Which I probably won't be able to do but if I can't and theres a underground reservoir I would grow mushrooms till I find another species to eat which would probably be bugs. But truthfully if there boiled then barbequed I would eat them. I'm assuming that since the climate changed so much so did the rain patterns so I would find a fast way to clean and collect water. If the sun is that bright then the water will evaporate and it will rain almost all of the time so that would be a good time to hunt. There probably won't be any food on the surface but the first time is worth the try. Unless I die. If there were any other survivors with me I might eat them cause I get hungry and lazy and unless there's a reason not to I will. If the sun dimmed then I guess it would be like being blind but I prefer living without my sense of smell. Everything smells the same and I don't want to smell them. Why would I choose to lose any other one of my senses? How could I lose it? There probably is a way. But I would make a deep tunnel filled with plants and mirrors that I can position to face them and not burn them. I wouldn't mind being alone but it's just boring. Thats probably why people say they may kill themselves. That reminds me of something I read in a book "The last man in the world was sitting in a room. Then he heard a knock at the door." and I had the same idea I had when I saw "I Am Legend" why not kill yourself. But when I think of that situation I wonder why I would. It seems fun although I'm alone with nothing to do but dig and eat plants and bugs.

I saw something called "The Instruction Manual of Life" and I don't think I liked it very much but it was about a kid and how different people are. I think that the way people are is different cause of the way people are around them and it doesn't make sense cause I don't know why there different cause there's always a better way to do thing to do and that's weird. There should only be one way to do things cause options just complicate things. It waists your time deciding what to do. But in the movie the boy thinks that his parents are wrong to tell him that there is only one way to make a shelf. He thinks that there wrong cause his friend did it different from the way his parents told him to. When he told his parents that there wrong they got mad. I wondered how could you be so mad at someone that you would tell some one there wrong and avoid the subject completely. Well I've done that but not about something so opiniative as what they think of a book. Like the book book "The Instruction Manual of Life" theres a book called "The Ten Commandments of Failure" and I haven't read it but it seemed useful. I know them and there true. I went through the list and I realized I lived my life all wrong and that's sad. I think everyone should read that book cause a lot of people obey the commandments. For example isolation. I do it all the time just stay in my house all day don't call anyone and I stopped talking to most of my friends. Well I don't know how to tell how good of a friend people are so there'll only be considered as just people. Another one of the ten commandments are not to stand to close out of bounds witch I do all the time. In every sport. Sometimes maybe not in Soccor and football cause I like to hit people in those sports. But in dodge ball I get as far back as I can be and in anything else I liked there can not be a boundary. Like fighting. I don't run but usually people move and start circling around and it gets annoying. I hate that. Theres another one that I do a lot witch is that I give mixed messages. I say things and don't explain it. But lots of people just go by the seven sins and the ten commandments. Not to failure. Its all good. Or bad. Or neither. Or both.